tmi tuesday - idiot edition
In the past six days, I was given this award by my company and $100; I also got a decent raise; my boss told me how awesome and valuable I am in my performance review; and I ran into an old friend who told me how great I was.
Obviously, I then quit my part-time restaurant job unceremoniously, abruptly and prematurely. Thus, putting myself in almost inescapable financial quicksand scenario.
la-la-la.
Time to find some respectable freelance design projects, asap.
(via toknowaboutsilence)
(Source: platypus717)
Yep, very much so.
(via toknowaboutsilence)
Trying.
I’m trying so hard to create a change. But change is so hard it’s physically painfull when I have anxiety and depression.
I’ve never been completely and wholly happy. There has always been that part of me that has a major fault. Lack of friends. Trichotillomania. Being a letdown. Being a fuckup. Social anxiety.
There’s always something.
One day I just want to feel completely happy. To be able to take a deep breath and not find something to worry about.
gotta be fresh.
(Source: appleday, via piranhaheart)
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(Source: omglines)
I have a real problem with people. I hate being seen by people. I’m constantly over thinking what is going on in their minds. I can’t bare to think about what other people are thinking about me, even if they’re complete strangers. I get really worked up before i go out to take a walk or go to…
I’m so confused. Will I ever get over social anxiety or even learn how to deal with it?
Will I always be afraid of people? Always fear what people are saying about me?
I’m hiding myself off from the world. And I don’t want to do that anymore.
I’m ashamed and embarassed over my life. I think I have toxic shame over my personality.
I feel plagued and haunted by insecurity and angst.
Will I ever be happy?
I wish I could be drunk every night, because alcohol allows me to be my true self.
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